New Semester

was feelin bored.

nuthing new.

nuthing exciting.

the studies may seem interesting.

but i'm missing the craziness of AUG.

eventho there's tension in the air and misunderstanding.

but,

the friendship still remains.

a friendship that last n meaningful.

not a friendship on the name of "classmates".

anyway,
this year have been something.

Goodbye 2008!

HELLO 2009..!~

may it be sumthing to0. =)

have u had ur love story? =p

XOXO

Awal Muharam.

Semoga tahun baru ini menjadi lebih bermakna untuk kamu kamu semua, tahun yang penuh keinsafan dan kesyukuran.

Doakan ain.
Insyaallah, ain akan doakan kamu kamu.

ain juga mahu mintak maaf atas segala salah ain.

i may not be the perfect friend but i try to be a good friend that u can count on. =)

XOXO

to Mohd Rasyid B. Osman,

i'm sorry. too many wrong doings of mine had hurt you n nuthing could heal it except time maybe.
i may seem like a slut to u now but please know that i never meant to hurt u. this big time ego n the need to satisfy myself gets by the best of me. i ignore what u feel to make myself happy. not only that, i've hurt many hearts on the way. so, yes u cud judge me all u want the way u want it.

I'M SORRY. THAT IS WHAT I WANT U TO KNOW.

XOXO

complicated

it's complicated.

confused.

not loving anyone makes us miserable.

but,

loving someone turns us crazy.

well at least that's what happening to me. now.

and i dont see any way out

except

running away from the truth.

feelings can be very complicated.

well,
here's for u Mr. Ikhwanul Naim.
u are a friend of mine. n u are important as anybody else are.
no more question here ok?

to my dearest YC ,
sorry kalau masalah ain ter-effect kamu kamu juga.

Nazmi,
i'm very sorry.
i've been weird stupid busy n clumsy.
i know u said even u don't recognise me anymore.

there's one more person to be included,
but not now..
need to straighten things out with him first.

XOXO

results?

just as i expected..
just finee..
not something i could be proud of..
but..
finee..

anyway,
congratulations to all my friends.

ween..
igt u divaa??
x friendship btol..

LOL!~

XOXO

JUJUR

expression ain masa bace blog 2 org yang sangat ain sayang : COMEYL GLER!!

haha..ain sangat excited bace..(gler..crita org len tapi org len excited =p). tapi mmg sgt sweet sangat. somehow, both of u made me smile.

kepada naz: sorry, masa tulis blog nie maybe naz igt ain da tdo but actually ada satu lg masalah yg menyebabkan ain x leyh tdo.

and yeah..lepas satu, satu masalah yang datang. giler susah jadi perempuan yang keras kepala gile.

masalah pertama,
status ain?
it's complicated. i'm single yet i'm in a relationship.
ain nk ngaku ain single tapi masih ada ego dlm diri ain yang x nk mengaku single. tak tak..bukan ego..tapi sbb awk xnk lepaskn sy..camane sy nk ngaku single. gile la sy camnie....

masalah kedua?
msg yang sgt best dr seorg lelaki yg sgt korg sayangi..

"kepala minah tue degil sangat."

masalah ketiga pn dr text msg(teknologi itu menyakitkan)..

ade lg text msg yg ain mmg tergamam bace.

ye ain degil.
xde hati xde perasaan kn?
tp sbb sy degil sy buat keputusan tue sebelum kedegilan sy tue buat dieb'tmbh skt hati sedih sbb sy.

sy keliru siapa ain pd kamu?
kawan atau bhn?
cara kamu ckp mcm kamu nk mengkaji sy. nk menguji sy.

akhirnya,
malam nie..
jatuh juga air mata ain.
bukan kerana "couple".
tapi kerana kawan.
bukan tak pernah.
tapi da lama x jadi.

haha..
kepada semua kawan kawan ain including my abangs,
ain sayang sangat korg.
sorry sgt if ain ade buat slh.

XOXO

perasaan itu tak mungkin kembali.

satu masa harapan itu masih ada. tapi bukan sekarang.

mungkin betul kata kamu, kalau aku cuba sebelum ini mungkin masih ada harapan.

tapi sekarang tak mungkin aku mencuba. cukup.

bagilah aku peluang untuk merasa hidup sebagai aku tanpa perlu memikirkan tentang hati dan perasaan yang "complicated".

aku minta maaf.

XOXO

current situation

AUG's opening ceremony is officially over. it may not be perfect but once we reach the end. everyone was laughing and hugging and congratulating each other. there's camera and flashes everywhere.
segala perasaan tak puas hati marah geram kecik hati dilupakan dalam masa satu malam je.
the event started kelam kabut. trying to organize athletes from all over asia is one hell of a work. haha..
athletes mmg sume sangat berdarah. the volunteers' fav? thailand's athletes~ haha..

all the time of my AUG practice. lots had happen. every single thing happening in my life went to another level. it is too complicated that i just cant tell it here.

actually, naz had ask me to blog so that he could "baca sampai lebam". haha..
unfortunately, whatever happen in my life for the moment is classified as "PRIVATE". so sorry.
but if i do tell it all, ur wish is fullfilled my dearest.

soory to tQah! didnt get to join ur party last nite.
still..

Happy Birthday Dear!~
hope for bigger things cause its better =P

heard that my results coming out in a few days. shit and damn. don't want to know what the results would look like.

XOXO

calling in *sick*

yup..
ain demam sejak kelmarin lagi..
few possible reasons is..
-kurang air
-kurang rehat
-cuaca yang berubah-ubah
mula dengan sakit tekak, selsema then terus demam. agak teruk sebab ain sampai xle bgn.

ain juga dah ada "tan" dan juga "belang".
*sigh*

btw, yc..what happen with our road trip? update with me yeah? maw mtk shift or cuti tros. =)

sorry jarang update. ain skarang sudah start rehearsal kat stadium nasional bukit jalil so sangat penat.
and kepada sesiapa yg tetbe menghadap jam ketika jalan tidak sesak disebabkan 44buah bas uitm, terima kasih kerana memahami dalam keadaan terpaksa eah? hehe..

abang poliss..maw naek satu round je boleyh x?

haha!

XOXO

semakin celaru

currently addicted to this song.

Everyday seven takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routines
Gotta talk to you now 'fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you what's hurting me

The world slows down but my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers

I don't want to try now
All that's lefts goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothings wrong
But there is no more time for lies
Cause I see sunsets in your eyes

i hate this part
pussycat dolls

XOXO

Sedih

satu malam, 28 November 2008....

masalah yang tak pernah sudah macam tidak ada penghujungnya.

Dia mencari punca masalah kami. Adakah aku atau dia puncanya?
saat itu hati aku terdetik "maafkan aku. tapi aku tak mampu"

Orang itu pula ada masalah sendiri, tapi aku tidak sedar.
maaf ganggu kamu. tapi terbiasa dengan kamu yang selalu ada untuk aku.

you, time time i nak you..you tak ada kn? i tak salahkan you.
i pun busy kan sampai tak ada masa utk you.

ain?
sedih celaru terharu
semua ini jadi dalam satu malam
tapi keadaan diri yang dipengaruhi dadah
membuatkan malam itu berlalu tanpa setitis air mata
walaupun hati meronta-ronta kesedihan.

XOXO