For the moment, post would all be from Muar. I know, lame. But its my destiny, somehow it was meant to happen. so, with love...
Thursday, December 16, 2010
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Monday, December 13, 2010
Again, from Muar with Love. :)
Posted by AIN at 2:16 AM
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Oh god. I am enjoying life as a physiotherapist (student-for-a-matter-of-fact), but outside the hospital?
Posted by AIN at 6:24 PM
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Life's been busy. It would be busier over the next 5 weeks left of our clinical practice. Therapists are all treating us greaatt! Tortured? Maybe in one way, in another way it helps us. LOTS! i have no idea that there are still like a mountain of things that we are clueless about!
Posted by AIN at 1:25 AM
Thursday, November 25, 2010
It's been what? 2 weeks? :)
Homesick and missing a certain someone is basically, a routine for me. but my story is about everything except those.
The town. Busy busy town with nothing i can do. pffftt. It's basically a chinese town as their race kinds of dominates the town. I can't even find a decent restaurant at noon thanks to the traffic and one way road. =.=' don't even ask about dinner, we would just stop by any restaurants or stalls that looks promising and assuring. Siapa kata makan murah?? Normal. feels just like Subang. and believe me, i've not been outside the house after 7pm. Don't have a reason too plus am too lazy to drive. Ngee~ Kind off getting used to it by now, whats with the tons of works given.
Work. I am starting to love it here. Leceh? Mungkin untuk sesetengah pihak. For this 1st 2 weeks, things are a bit chaotic as the management just changed hands, and one of the physio got into an accident (1/12 MC). Yeah, u could imagine how things are. But today, a staff meeting was held and Alhamdullilah. Lots of things were resolved, and i admire the HOD spirit of trying to help us become a great therapists. Even with the lack of time, lack of staff he starts on a routine of daily tutorial to help us with our skills and knowledge. Not forgetting all the other physios, with different characteristics and all they're always willing to help. :) Even tomorrow, i'll be conducting an aerobic class for the hospital's staff. wish me luck eh? ;) This friday, CME would start. Tutorial would start next week. We also have to make a timetable for 3 types of group exercises. each of us would handle one class. There's a plan to ask us to prepare an educational board for the department, perhaps on stroke. Then there's the world diabetic's day and so on.
Whoever follows this blog would know how i dreaded coming here! but now that time flies so fast, i don't even feel the rush to finish this posting. :D
ouh yeah, My Sayang? He's doing faaaaiiiyynn! :) As long as he stays true, i've got nothing to worry about. Apa? Kalau dia curang? BAKAR je! Seriously, this is what i told him. haha.
I miss him though. Hmmm. 6 weeks more.
Posted by AIN at 12:13 AM
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
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Thursday, October 28, 2010
Something he tells me this evening gave a me a reality-check-bitch-slap right in my face!
Posted by AIN at 1:19 AM
Sunday, October 24, 2010
mum proposed that i stay at home next semester instead of renting one. well, i'd love too, though for certain reasons i am still considering it.
Posted by AIN at 12:58 AM
Friday, October 22, 2010
d/t some technical mishaps, we've lost our clinical preceptors marks that would cost us 30% . Thus, now we've got to cover the marks by doing some extra work. We've been given the task to search for 20 case report. Mine is case report on stroke. and of course, physical therapy.
Posted by AIN at 1:09 AM
Friday, October 15, 2010
it kinda had become a habit for me.
Posted by AIN at 11:19 AM
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
We was the ultimate B & S.
Posted by AIN at 7:06 PM
Sunday, October 3, 2010
I can't seem to come up with any title, thus decided to leave it blank.
"nieh sape? "
Posted by AIN at 1:47 AM
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
All these talks about cars and phones, really got me thinking.
Posted by AIN at 12:55 AM
Sunday, September 26, 2010
nak jaga hati orang.
Posted by AIN at 12:18 AM
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Posted by AIN at 12:15 AM
Friday, September 17, 2010
i feel like pouring it all out here.
what happened, who're involved, how i feel.
can't be explained by any words.
i want to cry.
but it will be for no reasons.
i want to cry for something worthy of my tears.
but nothing is worthy right now.
thats what i do best.
Posted by AIN at 2:54 AM
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
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Sunday, September 12, 2010
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Friday, September 10, 2010
OMG OMG! It's Raya already! Seems time flies at high speed during Ramadhan this year. :) I miss Ramadhan already. I feel like i've wasted it too much to have right to celebrate Eid Mubarak. *sigh*
Posted by AIN at 12:06 AM
Monday, September 6, 2010
Sunday, September 5, 2010
There are two types, amongst the denizens of Hell, I have yet not seen them. One possessing whips like the tail of an ox and they flog people with them. (The second one) the women who would be naked in spite of their being dressed, who are seduced (to wrong paths) and seduce others with their hair high like humps. These women would not get into Jannah and they would not perceive the odour of Paradise, although its fragrance can be perceived from such and such distance (from great distance).
Posted by AIN at 1:17 AM
Thursday, September 2, 2010
My blog is dead. Greeeaaattt! :D
Posted by AIN at 1:35 AM
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Baby during the first four weeks of life. :)
Posted by AIN at 3:32 PM
Friday, August 20, 2010
As in today, its been 2 weeks i'm stuck at home literally. minus last saturday and sunday. ;) oh and classes and meetings and stuffs.
Posted by AIN at 12:57 PM
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Posted by AIN at 9:26 PM
Saturday, August 7, 2010
One more day to go.
I'm excited and worried at the same time.
Hopes everything goes well after what we've gone through.
It may not be the most perfect, but it will be something.
We've tried our best based on our limitations.
We're touched by the support.
Hurt by the complaints and rambles.
I'm amazed how some of the committee members are so collected and committed in handling the event .
I've to admit, w/o them the dinner wouldn't have come true.
Thanks guys. Ur the best! :)
Gotta go sleep. Busy busy day ahead.
Posted by AIN at 2:03 AM
Saturday, July 31, 2010
My dad gets the offer of going overseas only once in a while. A VIP here it seems. lols. This week is one of the week, he's in Aussie. And he got me a Coach's bag~ At last, and no, my family is not from the oh so wealthy i could have coach everyday if i wanted to. Thank you. ;) Love u daddy! *grin*
Being a girl, getting a bag makes me jump for joy ~ !
Today, Naim is playing rugby for SAF. ;) Good Luckk dear~ No, am not going to support. *awkward* Lols. Maybe i should ask him to play something where girls are not a non-existence. :D
So far, things are going well. A few exceptions here and there though. ;)
bye! going shopping!
Posted by AIN at 11:43 AM
Thursday, July 29, 2010
This is something to be think about, or maybe not.
Why on earth does we feel secured around the one's we love?
Every minute spend was worthwhile nevermind the fact that it was actually wasted doing nothing.
One second in their arms makes us feel a whole lot better.
Every touch makes u smile?
Every smile makes u melt?
and even with only a look in the eyes could turn u upside down?
Some would say "Sorry" seems to be the hardest word, but sometimes "sorry" is easier to be shown, not said. Even words can't deny the effect of an action. ;)
Can't seem to understand my rambling? Ignore, thank you. :)
Another thing is, foes or enemies.
How do we define them actually?
U know, most people claimed, that a certain person is their worst enemy and they just so hates them. yet, they stalked, they asked, they have the needs to know what is happening in their so-called enemies.
I'm confused. If u hate that person so much, then why do u have to care about them? Then, define hate. I would say, it's not hate.
It's either care, cause there's actually love not hatred.
It's just plain jealousy.
p/s: i could have explained everything, but then i thought it's for no reason.
Posted by AIN at 3:11 AM
Monday, July 26, 2010
Its been a while. Lots had happen yet nothing to be blog. I think i'm losing interest ? Whateverla~
Well, a news would be that we would be going our seperate ways. Starting this November ? The lecturers had happily seperates us for our clinical practice. ouh well, they have their reasons. Mummy is not happy yet okay with it.
The annual dinner is around the corner yet seriously, LOTS of things need to be done. Gym to be decorated. Things to buy. Budget to fit. Making everybody else happy about it. Seriously, the least thing u could do is understand the situation and not make a fuss out of it. and yeah, SUPPORT. an attitude? oh thanks a lot for being in a community~.
There was this alumni13 dinner hosted by the high school. have fun LOL-ing with YC. yeay! Spend approx. 3 hours getting ready! Best sangat! The place and food was yucky but it was cool to meet up with old friends old flames old teachers. yeah. long lost everyone was there.
Love story? ;) Loving every minute. Hopefully, our ups and downs would gain us strength.
Studies? i dont even know what to tell since class is something that almost not exist in my diaries. *grin*
Posted by AIN at 4:04 PM
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Well, at last i have something to say.
This comes from my good side.
I understand that the owner makes u representatives to collect all the money and stuffs, but seriously u don't have to ask us everyday when its been crystal clear he's coming on saturday~ u'll only exhausts urself and annoys us.
household items. PLEASE talk and let us know before buying ANYTHING! i don't appreciate people asking me money when i don't have the slightest idea of what u bought. we're living in a house, NOT college as we used to. So, treat it like ur own house AND act like ur living in a real house. we don't need 2 to 3 similar items in the fridge or kitchen or anywhere else just because everyone's acting so selfish. Except the item for your own room and ur toiletries, please, let's share. it'll let us saves more than u can imagine.
oh. for what i am babbling in here not to them? to restrict myself from flaring up in anger and disgust. i know how i'm capable of doing that.
for those who are not related to this house, stay out of it.
Posted by AIN at 10:01 AM
Sunday, June 20, 2010
For the sake of 3D, we waited for 5 hours. the 1st hour was spent at rope walk. Love's fav places to explore. Tho he found out nothing much was great there. Now, let's see what happens the next 4 hours. oh yeah. 2nd hour was spent in the food court at Sunway. Then 3rd hour was spent window shopping. *we'rebroke!* *grin* *blush*
Then i lost track of time. *lols~* The boys went into SenQ or something exploring all kind of those big big tv which all look the same to me. So, we *thegirls* sat comfortably on a sofa provided watching wonder girl's nobody while Naim was like "gelinya" . Then their next song, then suddenly Girls Generation come out. I am not a fan of Korean everything, but somehow i recognized GG *iknowHwudlovethispart* because of Yuri. At least i think its her? *chuckles*
I guess u did it. U made her known. well, to me at least. :)
p/s: the boys finally get to watch a 3D movie. ;)
Posted by AIN at 8:36 AM
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
For the whole semester, i've been criticized by every other peoples. that includes hypocrites, people who thought they knew me well enough. Think again 'dearest', u r way out of line. :)
Thus, i promised myself that somehow, am gonna prove them wrong.
Results for the semesters are out, and i'm blessed! told ya I'm gonna prove myself. Though, i'm certain i could have done better if i started from the 1st semester. oh well, time does not turn around, no? i'm gonna stay positive on this one. I have all other advantages that they may not haves. The languages, the brain, the boyfie and the fun. ;)
Clinicals. I'm done with my lecturer evaluation. Though, i'm confident that i could have done much much better. Such a simple case, just lots of early precautions. Yet, panic attack! Thanks to the lecturer tho for giving chances as a first timer. :) Appreciated it, very much! Am gonna improve and try my best to be perfect in every other aspect left eg. clinical folders.
New semesters. Trying to find ways to not get involved in their misery. As in criticizing others to make them feel good bout themselves? *grin* Lame, i know. I guess this is the downside of being in an all Malay society? where mentality is still between the line of immaturity and actually matured. Oh, u'll only be offended if ur one of these people i'm talking about. :)
Posted by AIN at 9:04 PM
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
who could imagine that greatest love of all do exist in this mean world. ;)
and not to mention, in a hospital. where everything looks sad and dull.
*notes to self*
True love would always be there no matter what ur condition is.
Wife suffers from Parkinson. Husband is always there smiling at her while she's in treatment. She doesn't trust others to hold her except him.
young couple. Husband survived stroke. Always exchanges jokes, giggling while hubby on treatment. Never fails to bring him water, take off and put on his shoes. Help him up, push him in wheelchair. ;)
very young couple. An 19 y/o girl involved in MVA, suffers traumatic brain injury. Undergoes cranioctemy. unable to speak, or mobilize. very low confident and very little tolerance to pain. during treatment, boyfie was there to encourage her and help her. yes, her BOYFIE not husband. ;)
Young mother with two children suffering muscular dystrophy. Never fails to smile and entertain her children while exercising. Never fails to support them. Always, smiling, laughing and kissing them.
and lots of other similar cases. these are the ones that caught my eyes.
Posted by AIN at 10:17 PM
Friday, May 28, 2010
i oh so love it. its what i call home. ;)
no matter where i have to be, it'll always be in my heart.
even when i'm married and needs to live somewhere else w my hubby. ;)
3 weeks in Penang.
Love blooming like it could never end.
i seriously wish it wouldn't.
it's like we're back in honeymoon period.
nothing can hurt us, i hope.
i gained i.5kg in 3 weeks.
hope i'd keep on gaining weight.
ngee~ the last day in penang before coming back, they said i look more chubby than before.
thats, a compliment. :D
Work have been a blast.
I think i could live as a physiotherapist.
but, the same routine every single day?
im having 2nd thoughts bout that.
but hey, ive got 3 more clinicals to go.
oh, i dont want to split groups.
prob is, eventually ppl would start talking.
why do they have to do that?
live us alone.
Posted by AIN at 8:38 PM
Saturday, May 22, 2010
im gonna get fat.
unlike what zieq predicted, i am not buncet-ing.
2 weeks and i'm having a tummy again.
loving penang for its delicacies!
Posted by AIN at 9:55 PM
Friday, May 14, 2010
i wasn't gonna make this blog one to talk about cases and works. since i cant remember or bother bout tumblr, i just decided to just use this blog. so readers, prepared to get bored and clueless.
1st week. only 2 cases. ;P no, not because there is no cases. but too many till i just dont get the time to grab one patient and assess them. whats with the small gym and overcrowded patient. funny thing is, they all came at the same time, and gets out at the same time too. on certain days, we'll be relaxing by 11 am! and break is at 1. lols. too many time to prepare to get hungry! *grin*
1st case, frozen shoulder. ;) 2nd case, ACL tear. ;)
The physios there are very nice! and they dont just shut u out when u asked something. Tho we could always find their fault, as told by many lecturers in class. still, sometimes they know better what with all the experience. no?
p/s: i think i'm loving my job.
Posted by AIN at 9:43 PM
Monday, May 10, 2010
1st day here, not so bad. except for the weather. and i thought Subang was very hot.
I'm not good in summarizing the day. Too much work. lols~
oh wth, we arrived around 11, 12? somewhere there. Now only i am thankful to have Puncak Alam. *seriously* The building is old, nevermind that but not the fact that it is very filthy! Trashes are everywhere, and the office is behind the building. and i really mean behind. we have like to 'tawaf' the building baru jumpa office. ngel~
oh, lunch was awesome! Mee Udang Sg. Dua? terbaiikk~ :D Thanks mummy daddy~
cooooll~ besides us, we have 4 more diploma students from acms, kepala batas. They're cool. ;) We didnt do much today, will start getting cases tomorrow. Anyway, i have a feeling i'm gonna love being here. *grin*
p/s: i'm eating alot. sweating alot. drinking alot. working alot. and eating alot some more. do u think i could gain weight? *wink*
Posted by AIN at 9:29 PM
Sunday, May 9, 2010
in about 6 hours, I'll be on my way to Penang. believe it or not, I'm going to work. serious work. where i cant mess up, or I'll screw my reputations. somehow, it's different than working as anything as long as i get the money. This time, I'm working for my grades. 8 credit hours. screw up, and I'm dead. :(
Most of my friends won't believe this. i am actually going to treat patients. who would have thought. Lil diva-ish Ain turns out to be a physiotherapist? RoFL~ To H, i oh so adore the post! thanks for missing me already. i know u miss making me scream! :))
Omg. i hate holidays w/o u guys. if possible, do try to come and kidnap me on either Friday or Saturday since I'm working on Sunday. ;)
I'll miss u girls and guys, a LOT!
for the moment, i think I'd finish packing except for the small thing like toiletries, make ups etc. which would have to wait for tomorrow. and i think i break my record, i am only bringing one luggage bag, one box full w stationary, books etc, one bag for my laptop and one handbag.
oh well, i guess that's because i exclude my Roxy bag which i stuff in my comforter and 3 to 4 pairs of my shoes which is going straight into the car w/o boxes or begs, not to forget my laundry-washed and ironed clinical uniforms. :))
Why is it hard to lessen things? i guess the need to bring everything along despite all the tips learned in magazines is much more comforting. even when I'm typing this I'm trying to remember what else did i left behind.
Nevermind, I'll blame Naim if i left anything behind. he kept on saying, only the clothes matter. everything else could be bought there.
i guess i better head to sleep now. Nites dearest. Wish me luck.
please know i love u all.
and i know u love me. :)
Posted by AIN at 1:21 AM
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Why am i excited yet reluctant to go there?
Seriously, one thing about traveling that i hate most, packing! I could never pack right! Make a list as long as i could, but somehow there would always be something left behind. hope this time, it doesn't happen that way. lols.
okay2! i'm going packing now!
Posted by AIN at 1:26 PM
Sunday, May 2, 2010
I'm relieved that we don't chose specifically who we stayed with. Now, our problems are solved. We don't have to cramp inside a house. Instead, we have enough space for each and everyone w/o messing our heads where to stash our belongings and at the same time fit ourselves in a house.
Choosing the right housemates, right friends are crucial. i can't deny that one bit. but not to the extend of burdening our own self, time and money. Alhamdullilah, our housemates seems fine. I don't think there would be much problem. Our landlord are nice. Very nice. They left almost all the things in their house for us except for beds. Which made our work seriously so much easier! They even promised to re-paint the house, repair what needs to be repair and clean the house for our convenience. Basically, we only need to enter and place our stuffs w/o worrying bout furnitures etc etc.
though i'll have to say. renting is hard work. now i've got to think like my mum and dad. Bills, cleaning, cooking etc. Double major trouble~ *dasarpemalas!* lols~ Next sem would be a pain in terms of cash. The other sem i hope would be better! ;) I need to find a part time job, i guess?
for the record, i can't wait to get hold of the Persona~ which would make my life so much easier. ;) come and go as i wish. Be patient Ain. The time would come.
Posted by AIN at 10:07 PM
Friday, April 30, 2010
Oh, i am dedicated to studying this week. NOT!
lols~ naahh~ not really dedicated actually. despite all the tough subjects this semester, i'm more relaxed compared to the previous semester. don't ask me why. i just don't know. anyway, when studying reach the ultimate boredom, i tend to tweet and stalk people who matters most in my life. not those haters. when it comes to H, i gave up. her blog is totally out of my league! anyway, she tried to help me by making a special post. and oh i am touched! ;) To S, i read all yC's blog. no matter how kompelikated it mait sim. :))
Summary of exams? Please, just wait for the result. what's the best summary for exam except results aite? :D as i said, i am dedicated to studying this week. and lets make it a much smaller NOT! insane much?
what else. what else. oh! houses for next semester. as a degree student, we're meant to be kicked out from college one day or another. so, we decided to get our ass out from the college before we got kicked out. haha. but then, we found kind of a perfect house. RM800 w/o the bills. Fully furnished w/o bed. Great neighborhood too. Max 6 tenants are allowed. Good news, we have 4 at the moment. bad news, we dont have anyone to total up to 6. and we are very sure that we can't afford the rent with only 4 persons! anyone up for the grab? 2 person needed tops!
i should start studying now. tutoring love. *as if*
Posted by AIN at 11:00 PM
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
I am basically glowing in and out! ;)
Thanks to Love, that is. He came to my rescue before i get all hormonal. rofl~
Seriously, being here would not get me at my best. i'd stress out before u cud even count to 3. *3secondrulesanyone?*
at the moment everyone else was so stuck up in books notes etc.
we took the liberty to went out together.
the thought of getting out from here was ALWAYS comforting in a way.
being with you makes it even better. :)
thought of coming back?
makes me squirm~ and whine~ and god knows what else.
i wish i could just stay at home.
best place one could be.
Posted by AIN at 10:02 PM
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Somethings cant be shared with words. ;)
Let it stay in my memories, yet i can't seem to keep this happiness alone to myself.
Posted by AIN at 11:20 PM
Friday, April 16, 2010
Posted by AIN at 11:52 PM
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
A visit that had at last, open up my eyes & mind.
Previous hospital visit didn't actually exposes us to the everyday routine of a physiotherapist in a department work. One reason was 1st, in the 1st and 2nd semester we only had visit to have an idea of a department and it's equipment etc.
3rd semester we did went to the orthopedic ward, but we didn't actually get to see how a physio functions here. Even in the outpatient, almost all the patient are quite normal despite few limitations. plus, there are very few patients at that time.
this semester however, a visit to a bigger hospital. with more friendly physiotherapist helps me, us to get the feel of being in the hospital, working not just visiting. i hope i am ready to be an intern this upcoming holidays. pray for me! cause i know, i'll be suffocating d/t lack of knowledge. thanks to being super lazy all four semesters. :(
oh, he asked me. till when i am gonna keep myself shut and ignore the lots?
seriously, i don't know. maybe, until i am ready to forgive & forget.
definitely not now.
Posted by AIN at 9:17 PM
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Call me a bitch.
That wouldn't make u better than me.
In fact, it puts u at a lower level than me.
Put on your seatbelts girls.
The Diva had pushed on the Bitch-y button.
Posted by AIN at 1:03 AM
Saturday, April 10, 2010
How hypocrite can a person be?
despite all the laughter and smiles and gratitudes, deep inside there's always a negative thought.
i've experienced this for oh so long now.
in fact, i am facing hypocrites almost everyday for the moment.
and have been putting up with it for as long as i can remember.
i've played it their ways. now its my turn to play it my way.
what the heck?
do i look like i care what they're gonna say?
i've had enough!
pull a face if u want to but i couldn't care less.
talk behind my back and see if i care.
plan to ignore me? don't waste your time cause i'd be happy to do it first.
from the start i'd never thought bad about any of u.
but being here. seriously opens up my eyes.
Who am i referring to?
Once u read this, u'd know who i'm talking about.
Maybe it's u?
I can't wait to get out of here asap!
don't make me loathe u lots!
once i start being a bitch.
there's no turning back.
even Naim wouldn't be able to stop me.
Posted by AIN at 12:34 AM
Thursday, April 8, 2010
saya tau, walau macam mana pun penyelesaiannya awak & awak, dua dua akan terluka.
tapi kita kan kawan dah lama?
janganla sebab ni, hubungan tu jadi renggang, paling teruk putus.
kalau betul awak happy.
kalau betul keputusan ini adalah terbaik.
saya sokong. saya doakan yang terbaik.
mungkin bukan masa awak.
mungkin ada yang lebih baik untuk awak.
ingat, tuhan maha adil.
dia tak akan anugerahkan kita pasangan yang tak setanding kita.
saya tak cukup baik untuk menasihati.
tapi saya cuba.
sebab saya sayang awak & awak.
Perkara itu belum pasti.
Mungkin masa depan akan mengubah perkara kita jadikan sekarang.
Tapi yang pasti, persahabatan itu jika tulus. Pasti akan kekal.
Cinta antara sahabat itu lebih indah.
Saya sayang awak, awak, awak , & awak.
Posted by AIN at 2:56 AM
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
I have no idea who is being true to me. or who's not.
No, i am not talking about love. Seriously, nothing to do with it.
Just that, sometimes when i thought i'd finally made friends. something would always happen that made reality kicks me hard.
i am not the kind of person who can be friendly to just about anyone that easily. we may sometimes shares the same joke, but thats just it. to spend time together, to really take notice or care about, only with those i'm comfortable with.
secrets and problems are another thing. i only share it with one i knew, would understands me. i have a tantrum. i have a mood swing. i have my own way of dealing with my problem. sometimes, people can't accept my ways. but that's my way. i dont expect anyone to understand. yet still, people misinterpret me. yeah. nvm. people misinterpret me all along.
i had been an ignorant little me once. it work just fine with me. i dont have to care about anyone. i'd do my things, n not have to consider about others. it does have it's downsides tho. but for the moment it sound perfectly bliss to be able to do that, again. if only, i can.
once, that ignorant little me came back. Everyone around would be affected. I'll come and go as i please. I'll only care or be with the ones who really matters most to me. That time, my friends would be categorized into priority. That time, i'd be heartless. Bitchy. wtv u called it.
That time, everyone would be talking behind my back.
That time, i couldn't care less.
That time, ones who are true would be the one to stay.
Posted by AIN at 11:19 PM
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Gian nak update blog.
Yet, i have nothing on my mind. Oh. Aznil just won. lols. no reason why i'm typing this. i told u. nothing is on my mind right now. so, bye!
Posted by AIN at 7:13 PM
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
I thought that i'd hold on to my throne of being a super spoilt diva for too long. Maybe, a step down would do me good. well, guess what? i was wrong. You could never suppressed who u really are for too long, no?
Instead of letting go of that throne, i'm going to get it back. So, yes. do expect the old me. Super bossy super spoilt super selfish. :)
You may ask why? for those with twitter. u'd know why. i am not going to let myself be treated this way again. it may seems like a small issue, but to a diva every issues are major issues!
I may be slow. I am not perfect. But i am not someone that could be step on like this. what? just because u carry an innocent girl next door images, ur always right? well, think again my dear. i've put on with all this crap attitude far too long.
From today, i'm taking the lead. like it or not, the Diva is back.
and it's not going to be the same game anymore. ;)
Friday, March 26, 2010
Check out my addictions. Instead of going from hundreds of thousands to nil. it goes exactly the other way round. which i kind of love, yet it is holding me back. from what u may ask? socializing back in USJ duh!
i am missing yC. a whole lot more than i realised actually. Not just them, but i miss my mum. it's been ages since i went shopping with her condemning my every choice! *sigh*
is it the hormones or am i seriously losing my mind? or maybe too much gossip girl? u know, u shouldn't left drama queen with a tv series FULL of life drama alone. u'll a get a megadrama Queen in a blink of an eye. =.='
and, whats weird is, my social calendar is in the sacred Puncak Alam itself. Lame. i know. but what does an over-achiever (as if!) supposed to do? i am needed everywhere.
i'm a masseur this saturday. Then on Sunday, i rotated 360 degrees into an aerobic instructor. The next 2 weeks will be projects & tests weeks. then it's the final. wowee. thats sound excruciatingly FUN!
then 2 days after my final paper or final station (whichever comes last)i'll be heading to Seberang Jaya for my clinicals! additional FUN!
and the news from my so called beloved brother, (u know who u are) are playing round in my heads like a stuck radio. it's like it comes out straight from GG! UES much? or should i say, USJ much?
seriously, broke or not i am getting that spa in Penang! don't ask me how, where or what. Let me dream first!
oh shit. i am supposed to be studying! I've got a test and i can't play around with my grades anymore! i've scored my best for the previous tests. I can't let the charts drop! i've to stay consistent!
From now on, i'm gonna be a Diva and top notch student.
never a nerd.
Posted by AIN at 2:01 AM
Monday, March 22, 2010
been a while since i ramble on and on b0ut endless topic. Haha. I'm not that bz, but yet i just d0nt have the reason to blog. Yes, things happen. Here and there. But i guess n0thing really special nor exciting happens. Oh. yC are kinda quiet lately. Twitter is mving slower than usual. So, yeah. Where are u guys?
Posted by AIN at 2:47 PM
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Ooohh~ Today, i officially called it a public holidaayy~! yeay!
After a hectic semester with classes all the time, today all the class was canceled!
So, the Botox (will be introduce later on) , me & ika decided to go on a girls day out! well, not quite la, actually ask naim to tag along but he refused, so yeah,it's a girls day out! *rinduGDOwYC!*
Main plan: Alice in Wonderland 3D *completed*
side plan: shopping! *WELLdone*
Oh oh! i was planning on shopping, but as usual i'll be too fussy to pick up anything. at least thats what i thought, but today was different. i bought *ohihopemamadoesntreadthis* 2 pairs of shoes! Almost bought 3 though. was attracted to a wedges but thought better than. ;)
Besides that, we cruise in a japanese shop with all the items cost only RM5. Bought my self a skinny belt and a cute pink measuring tape! lols~
Spotted also a studded clutch in Vincci accesories! Gonna get it the next time! =D
Posted by AIN at 11:49 PM
Saturday, March 6, 2010
2 different tests. 2 very different subjects. same day. half & hour gap.
takes the breath of our whole class and make us go blah blah blah.
i slept at 4am last minute revising my exercise physiology. the more interesting subject.
and slept the whole morning today, even skip my neurology class. ;p ignoring pharmacology. seriously, it's a bore. i thought i was gonna spend my morning revising the latter. i read 2 pages, and was fast asleep. :))
Arrived at the exam hall, prepared & ready to answer EP.
"Pn. Maria lambat sket. kul 3 nnt baru mula."
"Pn.Maria kata die da anta org suh jaga kite test"
"Pn.Maria bg choice, buat test malam ni or pg esok"
"Sape yg mara & kutuk sy petang td? tlg phm. sy pnat baru blk outstation n td meeting etc etc"
Tonight, we'll only sit for Pharmacology test.
"Puan, EP dulu la puan. budak OT ta dtg lg. Puan kate pkul 9.30"
"Np, i told ferdaus malam nie Pharmacology sj. Sy bwk test Pharmacology shj. Siape NR, drive carefully, jln Meru tu gelap"
seriously, i lost my momentum.
i don't have the heart to sit for these tests anymore.
feel sorry for the post diploma who came down or stayed back, but in vain. i am not blaming anyone though. Sabar je la en? ngee~
so, exercise physiology test is postponed to this Monday. Damn. Pharmacology was done & marked. *widesmile* Thanks Pn.Maria for the true & false Q's. All the statements was right from the book which is very convenient. Eventhough the test is 5% only, hopefully it'll help later on. ngee~
Gaahh~ So much work yet so lil time. What with clinical at the end of the sem, my life wont be the same anymore.
Posted by AIN at 12:38 AM
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
suddenly, i felt home sick. I wanted to be at home this very instance. yet, i know i can't. :(
i guess, i am very much spoilt. *_*'
Ma, i don't wanna go to Seberang Jaya. :(
Posted by AIN at 4:27 PM
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
My day, i'd have to say starts at 5.30am. today. I was startled from sleep d/t god knows what. There's a feeling inside of me. Dark, scared, ashamed. I thought it was the end. I can't make up why am i awake. I can't bring myself up. Troubled spoilt bratz in the mist of morning rise. :)
Then i realised, Sayang is calling to wake me up. twice. Rather slowly, i bring myself up and get ready for class. By that time, i feel bouncy again. lols. i know.
I smile, i laugh. Then the lecturer came in. Our Head of Program, Madam Kamariah. or Madam K for short. She came in, stands in front of the class. Usually, she'll come in, puts her bag down and straight away ask us to start presenting, fast. not today. she look around,and says..
"excluding the post-diploma, the original sem4 OBE students will be going for clinical posting end of this semester."
That moment, the whole class went astray. All such Q's asked. except for one person, he is the only one enjoying the news. That is, Mr. Ikhwanul Naim Ismail. *boyfiesapelanie* ;)
Madam K explained the reason to us. calmly. i do think the way she smile to us is somehow, sarcastic.
Later during the day, the posting area was announce. As i suspected, there will be arguements on 1st, how to divide the places. 2nd, trying to get the place nearest possible to home.
My group? "jom kita merantau."
Results, we end up in Seberang Jaya. ;) The place where no one seems to want to go. Instead of letting ourselves involve in the drama, we chose to keep calm and except anywhere available. Come on, we have like 4 more clinical posting to go to. Buat ape gado-gado? To me, i'll save the best place for last. final year, the most crucial clinical posting. ;)
Anyway, at the moment i got the news that there may be another draw tomorrow.
Kinda annoyed with it, can't we just lives with our decision? Co-operate la. Next sem, next year ade chance lagi kan? chillax je~
Back to me, i am EXCITED! yet un-prepared. my mindset was next semester! Plus plus, we also got the news that our final papers will have only one day gap between each paper. and we'll be the first batch to undergo final practical examination (OSPE/OSCE). Then, straight to clinical.
wish me luck dearies!
Posted by AIN at 9:11 PM
Monday, March 1, 2010
i realised my blog is quite abandoned these past weeks, though i tried to post up something every now & then. Not that i don't have the time. technically, that is quite true. but the main reason would be that i'm out of words. lols.
where do i even starts? a summary is easier, no?
February, starts of lots of works, tests, submission, programs.
1st test, i slumped. I didn't revise, at all! ouh, being a copy cat t/o test is NOT fun. seriously.
2nd test, which is today. i was determined. by hook or by crook, i've got to finish revising! turns out, i went dizzy the whole night. *damn* change of plan, instead of staying up. i woke up super early! 5am. studied the 3/4 remaining of what i needed to study. Test? turns out, okay. ;) i managed to answer most of the Q's. why only most? cause one of it is drawing and explaining. anatomy of upper respiratory tract. *pass!* LOLS.
Now, i am proceeding with the lots and lots of assignments waiting in line. :)
Next week, a booked weekend by my c'sha. ;)
the other week, Junior's induction. *evil*
the next week, Physiotherapy Carnival. *datangla!*
and more to come. ;)
Posted by AIN at 9:56 PM
Thursday, February 25, 2010
It was nice. ;)
I got TON of wishes via all sorts of communication ways available. *terimakasihfacebook* :))
Laughs,Smiles. Frown here and there. Haha. And oh, everyone is calling me TUA. ciss.
Until today, i am still getting belated wishes. :)
THANKS EVERYONE FOR REMEMBERING OR EVEN REALISING!~
A class in the morning. Then i spend times in my room. Facebooking. Sleeping. Texting. Resting. Then, at what around 4pm? Naim pick me up, and went for rojak & cendol @Puncak Alam. ngee~ :D
Next stop: Sunway Pyramid. Wasting our time camwhoring. :))
The last stop of the day, is the best part of the day.
Happy Day, Taipan.
My family had planned for a dinner there, where my mum specifically ask me to invite Naim along. :D and oh my, i can feel myself bloating at the end of my meal. Even Nazmi can't eat already. *surprisedbythat!* All night, Naim is joking aroung with Abah. humm. ;)
Then, somehow, somewhat a small cheesecake suddenly was sent to the table with the cutest candle on it. *gosh!* well, apparently the cake came along with the crew. the next thing i know was that i was standing on the chair, in the middle of a restaurant! *blush*
i remember saying, i love everyone at the table *wink* and my brothers keep saying that my bday wish was to have a fiance, fast! ;p Then, they sang me a Bday song. *yipee!* Naim was smiling sarcastically tho. ngel~ I know ur laughing at me being treated like a child. ;p
*sigh* i wish the night was longer. :)
Thanks again each & everyone of u for the wishes. :)
p/s: i still didnt get a baloon tho. :(
Posted by AIN at 5:40 PM
Thursday, February 18, 2010
One week to my Bday.
excited? hopeful? dreaammy?
yet, i just know nothing special is going to happen. *sigh*
No, not expecting anything from boyfie. *sangattidakromantik* <3
No, not expecting anything from family. *since i'm going to be in Puncak* <3
No, not expecting anything from classmates or collegemates. *practicals & tests* <3
No, not expecting anything from fellow YCs. *classes, colleges & jauhness?* <3
But, oh. Childish as it seems, i've been longing to have a HUGE helium-filled balloon that says Happy Bday Princess in pink! This is a bday wish i had since i'm in high school. ;)
Why u might ask?
It reminds me of my 5 y/o Bday party where i get the same thing. I had also given out helium-filled balloon as one of the door gifts. *muchsmallerthanminethatis* Sadly, my BIG pretty balloon pops before i even get the chance to shows it off. :(
Since then, i never get the same thing or a Bday party as grand as it used to. Thanks oh so much to 'aging'. ;(
Other "matured" bday wish?
Since i am materialistic, i'd love everything from new shoes to new make-ups! :D Materialistic much? i know. don't get me wrong tho, YCs would know that i love cute stuffs meant for children under the age of 7. :))
Oh. i hope for myself to turn to the better. and i hope <3 also have a turn to the better. hum. tough luck? i know but better than being hopeless. something just crossed my mind, but it went running away at full speed. now i have no idea what to continue blogging about. :(
okay. i'll stop now. :D
Posted by AIN at 1:52 AM
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Once, i might get excited on "connecting" via facebook.
Now, when "dreams come true", no. seriously, not a bit of excitement was felt. *sigh*
It becomes a burden. A heartache. Soon, no. IT had already become a source to bicker about. who am i lying to? it's not bickering, more to fight. BIG fight.
seriously, thanks FB for becoming a pain in the ass. Lols.
Posted by AIN at 1:36 PM
Saturday, February 13, 2010
i have to be honest, it was a much dreaded program. But then, the crowd made it lively & fun. Physio rock! *all of a sudden excited*
We waited for almost 2 hours for PM's arrival & was told that he was at another event before coming to Puncak Alam, the reason that he may not be able to be there on time. VIPs, they are always fashionably late. * i think that includes me* :D
compared to other courses whom sits behind or just a few here and there, physio stays together full with excitement preparing for the PM by the red carpet. we fought our place there from the masscom students tho. They are like sooo annoying. Just because the PM requested that they be there to celeb his arrival doesn't mean they have the rights to act snobbish. It's our campus, but they're acting like "hello~ PM requested for us, even sponsored our buses, thus we must have ONE straight line by the red carpet.Physio student whom PNC requests, should make a double line.Gives us space" So, fine, take all the space u want. But, we'll still be there by the red carpet, doubled or not. :D At the end, we managed to stays in a single line, while the mass comm students stays before the red carpet. whatever la kan.
Oh! It was on news! Haha.Physio was cheering our trademark at the moment. :)
Pictures on Facebook people! :D
Posted by AIN at 12:10 PM
Monday, February 8, 2010
this week is all about hectic & chaos!
i've been squeezing aerobic practices & netball practices in my time table. Not much fun u would say? Quite the opposite. Instead of complaining, i am thankful that we get to spent more time together. Besides, i managed to squeeze in dentist's appointment and date together in one day. *thanksteman*
On Friday, i was helping out two of my seniors with their research. Then, done with both research, i help Phytas's crew loads a HUGE cabinet, seriously huge & heavy before i went for Aerobic's rehearsal. I thought that night i could rest & sleep. HAHA. let's LOL together cause Netball's game is tonite! Fortunately, one of my seniors which is UiTM's netball player changed her mind & decided to join our team. *so i reserve! yeay!* and we made it to the semi's!
Saturday, it's the big day! OMG! i was shocked by the amount of students that came supporting the program. *nevermind the fact that they came for the coupon* But, things turn a bit chaos when the head-mic is not available. which then force me to use a hand held mic to conduct the session. First time conducting a big crowd with the PNC, i've got to act professional, thus trying to look comfortable using a hand-held mic. The mic going on and off is seriously NOT helping! Well, as i thought, there were complaints & critics but still i know that i did my BEST! but i also know that i could have done better. Sorry guys!
Sunday, Big game against the most dreaded & competitive opponents! the nursings. :) We had been complaining that referee had been biased towards physio's team. but still, we play fair. AND win fair & sQuare! Not only did we win the semi's but we also win the final's! first place for physio's netball team!
All through this 3 days was fun fun fun! :D
Posted by AIN at 6:24 PM
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
so what if u wanted to stalk? This is my blog. Mine. Thus, i have every right to write anything, ab0ut anyone or whatever. Stalkers ? Ign0ring them totally.
Its been two weeks of crazy hectic life. Assignments. Programs. Tests. Love life. Sigh. I am admitting i've been at the b0ttom of life these past days. Need i say more?
Oh. I am actually in class n its abt to start. Will babble m0re when i have the time.
Love u all.
Posted by AIN at 8:39 AM
Thursday, January 28, 2010
My laptop crashed. Thank you very much. Sigh. I am at verge of losing myself completely. PMS much? Pathetic!
I don't feel like myself these days. I put on a happy face, i went to class, i smiled i laughed. but at the end of the day, i was exhausted pretending and i just couldn't pretend anymore. Maybe one day, i'll just disappear. Get myself back, my hopes my spirits & my determination. I lost it somewhere along this rocky road of mine.
I have no idea whether this is the hormones talking or what.
Posted by AIN at 1:13 AM
Monday, January 25, 2010
Laughing on the outside, raging in the inside.
I actually hate this feeling, a problem i find hard to conquer.
Seems like i'm cool, but God knows how i feel.
But he has something, that makes me goes from rage to smile & laughter.
i couldn't seem to appreciate.
how much he wanted me to know.
The sincerity & honesty he has for me.
Rage is always there to accompany me.
i could control.
But certain times like now,
i goes out of control.
then regret my own action.
My mind would then go into chaos.
random thoughts that i'd never dare voice out would play around.
i never managed to find the stop button,
replay is the only button there.
i wanted to tell this to someone.
but i can never bring myself to do it.
p/s: Rezuin, sorry bbe. i'll talk to u when i'm ready k syg? Love ya!
Posted by AIN at 10:50 PM
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Actually, this is a program organised by our very senior working in RSK itself. Its a combination between a health program & a research. We were there to help the seniors in their final year research. ;)
At first we're supposed to be on the road by 5, tapi biase la. at last, 5.20am baru gerak. Unfortunately, baru jalan sket tak sempat panas kereta Karim tayar pancit plak. Da jd aksi mengangkat kancil manually sbb jek lembab, n masing2 perasan macam dlm f1. Fakta: klau itu f1 confirm korang kalah. HAHA. Lastly, around 6 baru jalan balik, stop tol Shah Alam solat subuh. tolak tambah dalam 6.30 jugakla baru betol2 berjalan lancar.
7.00am sampai R&R Seremban. Meet up w Pn. Maria, breakfast. Then baru sambung perjalanan.
8.00 am sampai la RSK. I thought Puncak Alam is in the middle of nowhere, tp RSK lagila in the middle of no where.
Basically, orang2 tua kat situ physically quite okay. Still boley jln sendiri eventho gait ta btol. Still boley diri lame, naik turun tangga. Tapi, biasa la nama pun warga emas, yg ta boley bercakap ada, yang ta berapa nak dengar ada, yg ta pdai menulis membaca pn ade. Kita yg bagi instruction pun kena ulang banyak2 kali & suara pun kena kuat. ada yang degil pun ada, tapi pandai2 la pujuk en. Bukan apa orang tua ni, kadang kadang dorang nie takut. Sedih juga bila baca sebab2 dorang masuk situ. *sigh*
Tapi memang kering la air liur aritu. I was in charge of Berg Balance Scale assesment. Assess balance la kan. ade 14 items kne buat, so nak terang2 kat dorg ni kne suara kuat. kene demonstrate. tapi nada suara kne lembut, kang merajuk plak. hehe.
Then, petang sikit, pegy ward untuk treat patient bed-ridden. or simply, patient yang fragile and most of the time was spent on the bed. Part nieh touching sket bila patient mengadu sakit, mengadu itu & ini. cam nampak la jugak dorg ni rase terabai, bila ktorg dtg bwt treatment, riuh2 kan meriah2 kan suasana, dorang suka la. terhibur sket.
Pakcik2 kat situ berkenan btol dengan Naim. HAHA. cet, bajet penyayang la tueh? ;)
anyway, lepas abes program bukan terus balik pun. Singgah dulu kg.baru makan nasi lemak. Haha. Sampai puncak alam nak dekat kul 10. Then, terus anta Naim & balik rumah. Balik tue mmg tdo ta igt punya. :)
nak lagi program macam nie. seronok walaupun penat. :)
Posted by AIN at 7:57 PM
Friday, January 22, 2010
with nothing to say.
Might as well say something on what i've been up to currently.
Starts with assignments, two duedates in one week is not fun. Though, we managed to get it on time. succesfully. hope the marks would be one to be proud of.
Aerobics program. Quite smooth compared to other events managed in the past. :) I will be conducting on 6th of February. Datang tau YC! ;) Oh, it's going to be a 45 min to 1 hour session. Yeaahh~ Let's Sweat~
RSK, Seremban. Rumah Seri Kenangan btw. It's going to be a geriartric program. or simply, program rumah orang tua. haha. Tomorrow, 4.30 am from puncak alam. Have to be there by 7 am. huaaaa!
Posted by AIN at 2:58 PM
Sunday, January 17, 2010
The mood to blog is here. with nothing to blog about.
Friday, January 15, 2010
A quick recap on my life currently.
From the 1st week of lecture we had been burden with assignments which needs to be done in 2 weeks. Well, it's a MAJOR killer subject's assignment. Thus, full commitment must be given! I don't know whether i could score the theory, so why risk it right? Then come another interesting subject's assignment, Ergonomics. This is where we've got to find a workplace to analyze, present & viva. A project i would say. Then, being a degree student and all, assignments are all based on journals with the minimum of 15. Only 5 references from books are allowed. -__-' What with the location of the campus, and the slow net, finding a journal is hard work! A good journal would then need a sleepless night to find. UiTM di hatiku. :)
Also, our class is given the responsibility of organizing the Aerobics program for a year! OMGaga, i know. I was appointed as the secretary. A much dreaded position i must say. I can do the work, but i tend to be disorganize & very much forgetful. ;( Challenges, must be fight though. Not only that, i am also the weekly aerobic instructor. My colleagues, decided to gives us a class to train us to instruct. Brush up the skill, that is. Since, this weekly programme are open even to outsiders, YC! come join! I'll update the deets later when it's confirmed okayh?
Oh. I am actually revising my exercise physiology. mwhaxes!
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Ignore the title. It's just another name for hormone secretion program in our body. Still don't get it? Then ignore it totally. :)
Seriously, my face looks like crap. :( Everything about my body that relates to the endocrine system is on haywire! like omGaga! Major HELP!!
There's also things i can't tell in here. Don't even know how too. -__-'
Emotions? Don't get me started!
I get mad at the very slightest things,
then i'll break down & cry for no apparent reason.
Then, i'll stood up strong & says idc, even if i don't mean it.
Then, i stress out and drive like mad.
Then, i'm all better & starts apologizing like mad.
Endocrine system, please be good to me? :)
Posted by AIN at 1:19 AM
Sunday, January 10, 2010
When the semester starts,
so does the hormonal imbalances.
regardless with the menses or not.
maybe i should just stay at home?
as if. -_-'
Posted by AIN at 12:54 AM
Something a boy would tend to say to me. If, they do know me well.
Yes, i am.
Posted by AIN at 12:22 AM
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
1st day is average. 2nd day is the same.
when class commences, so does the problem.
i chose to entertain these issues lightly.
cause it's the same problem all over again. ;)
Though this sem things looks like it's better,
it's not for some important people of mine. :(
Stay strong dear.
one more sem and ur out from there!
Text me if u have any probs or even if u feel just like it. :)
ur the one who's always telling me to stay strong.
For the sakes of ur future & me of course, don't make any hasty decision yet?
give one more sem a shot.
Cause, obvie, i know ur stronger than this!
u don't want to gives up & present ur weakness to ur enemies don't u?
Plus, it's not that far away from the ending point right?
OMGucci! Marriage course?
Gatal much? HAHA. u go girl!
Jangan lupa jemput YC!
oh, and do post bout the course. *macammenarik!* ;)
The rest of you.
Please keep ur spirits high!
Posted by AIN at 7:48 PM