Last Week of Holiday.
Monday
Date <3<3
Tuesday
Menuntut Lappy.
Shopping with Mama. :D
Wednesday
Pack my stuffs.
pindah puncak alam weyy. :(
Thursday
Cake baking.
Friday
bbQ night~
Saturday
Shopping.
again :D
Sunday
College Registration
tamaw!!
XOXO
some prefer to just accompany each other without expecting anything out of each other.
they prefer to live in the moment.
they would just enjoy their time together.
they don't really care when will they meet up next or when will their "companion" call them again.
they don't have any expectations.
but will they be able to stay that way, once feelings are involved?
once they realized that their feelings are mutual?
once they realized that they actually wanted a relationship.
how would they handle it?
would it be too much to actually ask for a relationship?
then, where would the rules "no expectations" stays in this situation?
*sigh*
even after the "relationship" is declared.
the problems & questions wouldn't stop there.
would it last?
would they stay happy?
can they make each other happy?
*double sigh*
XOXO
the title says it all.
i am indescribable at the moment.
haha.
i am happy.
but,
i am not content.
so?
enjoy life as it is. :))
XOXO
if there's is such a way to show love.
it would be to fight to get it. to own it.
regardless what others may say or feel bout it.
we wouldn't know if its worth it or not.
*sigh*
i was out the whole day yesterday.
and when i'm back.
i am left with all these questions.
i have a desire rite now.
i tried to achieve on my own.
obviously, it didnt work.
why?
cause i've had enough of this nonsense.
of people judging me the way they shouldnt.
don't judge unless u've never met me and talk to me
or known me for years.
don't judge if u don't care.
Thankx for the latest post.
i am sorry.
i know ur better than what i've thought.
or what people think bout u.
u've said what u should have said.
give me space.
to breathe.
to laugh.
to cry.
to smile.
to frown.
to do whatever i want.
let go.
of your past.
of your vengeance.
of your long lost love.
accept.
the fact.
the present.
the lost.
perasaan itu sukar ditafsirkan.
baik gembira mahu sedih.
tiada perkataan yang mampu menggambarkan cinta yang dalam.
gembira tidak dapat difahami hanya dengan senyuman dan ungkapan "saya gembira".
sedih? air mata dan kata-kata tidak menggambarkan hati yang lara.
kenapa dengan saya?
tidak. saya tidak ada masalah.
cuma saya x dpt merungkai ape yg sy rase.
saya gembira.
tapi sy x tahu mcm mane nk gambarkn kegembiraan itu.
ada ketika sy sedih.
tp sy x tahu sbb ape.
tapi yg paling penting,
sy gembira sekarang.
kesedihan?
hanya sebahagian dr hidup.
XOXO
on my way back from kelantan.
the radio is on haywire. *figures*
my phone has no coverage. *sigh*
i looked out the window.
and i saw..
the lights from the green house.
shining on the strawberry plants.
in the dark road of cameron?
it's a beauty.
then i looked up to the sky.
and i saw...
full moon.
gorgeous. beautiful.
every single words that describes beauty.
it's romantic.
i wish there was a full moon everyday.
but when i give it another thought.
no.
i dont want a full moon everyday.
it wouldnt be special anymore.
a full moon.
they went through a cycle.
from crescent to full.
and the cycles continues
just like the perfect guy.
they don't come along everyday.
they appear after we've went through a cycle.
a cycle of pain, happiness, laughter and tears.
but when we do find the perfect one.
they would never seems to stay perfect.
the cycle would continue.
XOXO
.
i'm back!~
we'd arrived at my aunt's house at 8p.m.
laze around all night~
9 hours in the car? exhausting!
the next day, i tag my cousin to a wedding.
She loves photography just like most of us do.
so, she decided to make money out of it.
She's taking wedding pictures as a part time job.
SHASHAboii photography. :)
on friday morning, went to the hospital.
(name hospital tu pjg sgt, x igt ;p)
visited my great grandmother . causes of hospitalization?
minor stroke. recovering though.
then after the friday prayers, my family with my aunt's family went to Pantai Perkasa.
seronok!
Sabtu pulang semula ke Subang.
x puas.
tapi mereka semua bz.
*sigh*
XOXO
Joe Jonas dancing to Single Ladies?
a total ewwhh!~
:P:P:P
matul, i agree with u. :)
but i admire him for wearing that heels. LOL!~
XOXO
a change in plan.
i'm going back to Kelantan tomorrow morning.
will be staying in my aunt's house.
am not sure if i'll be online.
will try to.
planning to shop and do LOTS of thinking there.
was thinking to drag my cousins to a beach or any place serene enough to think and calm myself down.
anyway,
city life and country life.
is it all that much difference?
maybe?
when someone out of no where, suddenly lives in a city and looks down upon country life, eventhough he's lived that life before. what will the ppl living the country life feel?
someone from the country, think negatively of those in the city. how does that make them feel?
in the end, both parts would be hurt.
what's worst, both part had put themselves at the same level.
they're neither better nor worst.
it's not the physical appearance that matter.
one may dress up in city lifestyle.
but in their heart, we won't know for fact.
i am correcting my mistake.
and i don't want any of my friends did the same as i did.
i had once look down on country life.
but in fact, they're better than my life.
a city life.
which had no serenity and pure happiness.
what is there to be happy about?
too busy trying to catch time?
avoid traffic?
shopping for things out of my league?
eating out, always?
yes. i prefer a city life despite all that.
i've been bought up with all that.
needless to say,
at times, i miss the sea.
i miss the green.
i miss the serenity.
i miss the togetherness.
my family may not be perfect.
they may not be the best example.
we may not be the happiest of all.
but we are still family.
without them, i am nothing.
XOXO
