Hello.

The saying goes like this, sometimes we're at the top and sometimes we're at the bottom. So it really is up to us to make the most out of our life no matter how hard it might get.

Why all of the sudden am I rambling about this ?

Probably cause I'm feeling low at this point of my life right now. I feel like the world just passes by me leaving me behind. If that make any sense. I used to blog to spill my hearts content but right now nothing that I write seems to be able to express my feelings.

All these while I stop blogging is due to I have friends to talk about it with. I still do. Its just that I feel I had been burdening them with my story a lil bit too much. They too, have problems to think about. I can't expect them to always be willing to hear me out right?

What are these foreign feelings I am having right now.. I have no idea.. I just hope things get better faster.

I miss you.

I love you.

XOXO

Merdeka Merdeka Merdeka!

So there I was at the National Stadium Bukit Jalil for the Merdeka celebration..

Wow. There are a LOT of people!

I was literally suffocated at first! But I got used to it after a while. Taking charge of where should we go as my mum are already lost.

I don't really wanna go through part by part of the events as I don't find it interesting enough. I don't think it differs much from any other celebration done in a stadium before. So... Yeahh...

The thing that intrigued me is how enthusiastic all these people were. Singing along to the patriotics songs (well to the popular ones that is, they just waves the flag during the newer songs), waving flags big and small while chanting merdeka!

A dad beside me brought her 2 daughters along, I'm guessing around 4 and 5 years old ? Both of his daughters are very energetic! Singing along to almost every song! Not to mention jumping and laughing and giving the impression of oh what a happy family we are in this merdeka era. Of course there are so many other families there.

And... Hum... I think that's that. I don't really have much to say about the event. What is the saying again?

If you have nothing good to say about something, its better to keep quiet.

XOXO

Fabulous find Beauty Box; 1st review

Burt's Bees Nourishing milk & honey Body Lotion

Claims; 24 hours moisturization

My say?
It does work as it said! It might not feel as luxurious as some other body lotion might gives you, but having dry scaly skins like mine (yes I lack moisturization. Bad me!) you don't need luxurious feelings!

1st thing I noticed was that it is fast to absorb. One of the things I look for in a body lotion as I hate the fact that I have to keep rubbing it in until it absorbs.

2nd thing I noticed was that my skin wasn't scaly for days after using it once! That was last week. I do think my skins feel softer too. Teehee.

The 1st and last time I used it ( after luxuriously slapping it on my body, legs, necks and arms) there are still some left so I kept it inside a container. Tonight I used it again, and I still have enough for the body, legs & feet! Did I mention it comes in a 7ml packaging ? Hah! Yes it's that small!

The only thing I disliked about it is the smell. It is too strong of a smell and it's the kind of smell I hated on any other products. However, when I woke up the next morning the sickening strong smell turns into a sweet acceptable quite nice smell. Haha. So I guess it's okey.

On another note, I am thanking Fabulous Finds for such wonderful service given! I love the idea of having beauty box delivered to me every month! At least now I have a reason to babble more on my blog.

Till then...

XOXO

Of Eiffel Tower & Ribbons

No. I did not went to Paris. Unfortunately. *sigh*

Instead I got myself this scarf with an eiffel tower print on it which I totally dig!

I was feeling fancy too today that I decided to wear prints over prints with other detailings on.

It might be a tad too much thus the reason I kept my accessories to the minimum.

To be honest, I rarely dress up which explains why I rarely...no..actually never attempted a self-fashion post before.
I guess I am a lil bit vain today.

Oh well.

Footnotes:
scarf from Zorascarfs on facebook
Cardigan by Dressing Paula,Setia City Mall
Top by Uniqlo
Ring from a booth at Bazaar Oh Bazaar @ Rasta TTDI

XOXO

Child.

A child. Something that most married couple wished for.

What I won't understand, refused to understand is that why abandoned them when they're diagnosed with cerebral palsy or down syndrome or just mere delayed development?

They should have been grateful that at least your child will live. Quality of life? Yes, lower but that's the purpose of rehabilitation. Be grateful you could spend time and love them. Be grateful that you don't have to know they're going to be dead sooner that you expected.

I'll take the example of muscular dystrophy, the prognosis is death. Slowly, your once normal active child will become crippled. At one point, they won't be able to do anything. I can't imagine the feelings of parents experiencing this.

A child being left at the hospital because they're crippled. The dad sue the hospital and left the child. The mum? death during childbirth.

A dad looking after his delayed child. The mum left them for another guy.

What a world we're living in eh?

InsyaAllah. I pray that I won't be this kind of parents.

Allah S.W.T won't challenged us more than our capabilities. So, the fact is that we ARE capable of going through all this.

XOXO

Thank Allah for ALL the Blessings in the World.

Alhamdullilah...

InsyaAllah I'll be graduating soon enough, given that I passed all my subjects this semester. *Praying that I do*

So what's my plan? 

Let's see... this weekend I'll be in Rasta TTDI promoting my online boutique there. Do come and have a look! Not just mine, but 69 other booths spread on 2 days! 

10th of July I'll be travelling to Johor working/volunteering - whichever fits better - for Inter-university Sports Carnival. I'll be there until the 20th. Coming back just in time for Ramadhan :) 

Preparation to find a job/transition to work life etc etc... NONE! 

Now I know, most or at least some of my classmates had started drafting their resumes. Some of them had even targeted where do they want to apply for work. Some had decided to just wait. Some had also decided to not work or steer out of physiotherapy line. In short, they had made up their mind. Give the future a thought. 

Well, me? Contrary to the old me who had always imagine/dream about the future. I find myself staying in the present as much as I can instead of planning ahead. I haven't start a thing on my resume. I haven't re-organized whatever it is that matters when it come to job-hunting and of course I don't even know where to start or where to apply. Different people in my life have different hopes for me. Sometimes I felt that I might let them down if I gave too much hopes. 

People had been popping the Q (by people I meant my parent's friends, my aunts my cousins etc etc) : U had finished studying right? When are you graduating? Where are you going to work??

Honestly people, I don't have an answer. My answer will come once the results are out. I am NOT being negative. I am just trying to be optimistic. I am scared to death for my own future. 

Rambling again am I?

XOXO

ZOMBIFIED

What happen this morning keeps on re-playing inside my head.

Throughout the day, I'd been in a stance. At times, I would suddenly zoned out. Staring into nothing. Now & then, Naim brings me out of it. Trying to gather what's wrong. Sadly, I am incapable of expressing myself. In fact, I had never feel quite this way before.

In short, I am zombified.

What happen, makes me think. Re-evaluate who I am seriously.

I guess I am not the person I imagined I am.

Right now, I leave it to Allah S.W.T. Meanwhile, let the incident keep on re-playing itself with hope one day it will fade on its own.

XOXO

Life is Love

So, it has been 2 weeks since I started my final clinical practice in Hospital Selayang, Selangor.

Hospitals amazed me with their stories. Somehow, I feel hospitals very inspiring if you look at the right places the right way. I know i know, hospitals are dull and full of sick people so how can it be so inspiring?

Easy.

As a Muslim, we're told to remember 5 things before 5 things. In this instance, 2 of them answers the above questions.

Healthy before Sick.

Life before Death.

For the sake of time....

So, yes. Every story behind a patient's life are very much inspiring. What makes it better is that you know its true. Not just some script created by us with no such experiences as them. Take it positively, remember our place here on earth. Everyone is a nobody on earth. :)

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Story One

She's a young mother not even 30 years old yet, with 3 kids. One of them hospitalized. Her husband? Long gone with another woman without a divorce. Reason? She's no longer attractive. Her womanly parts are used out. A younger women suits him better than her. She no longer hopes for him, nor she hopes for another man. She's happy on her own. She's happy with her kids. She doesn't care as long as her kids stayed with her.

Such a pity.

Its not that she is not beautiful, but sometimes men forgets that beauty gets old. Hold it right there women before you go "hell yeahhh". Women too, tends to forget that beauty gets old. Sometimes, we pay too much attention to physical beauty that we forget its the inside that really matters. Choose and find those with faith to Him, insyaAllah we'll get someone with dignity and manners.

Story Two

A boy, an innocent age still. Playful, active age. Its normal for them to run around, fall down and bang with each other. But who are we to fight His wish? He runs and bangs a friend in the head. Gets on with school without any major problems. Problem starts the moment he reaches home, he suffered seizures.

Doctor diagnosis? Traumatic Brain Injury.

One minute you're a normal kid, the next minute you are dependent, inactive, pretty much bed-ridden although still lovable. :') Positively, we can say Allah loves him more. He protected him from the sin of the world.

Story Three

Who knows how work-life are gonna affect us, no? She's young, not yet 40 but already suffering common medical problems you hear in an elderly's life. Diabetes and Hypertension at such a young age. One day, she falls from stroke. Lucky her, although depressed she still have the will to get better. 8 months of physiotherapy, she could now walk independently, but... she still haven't gotten back her hand function. :( She also look depressed with her gait pattern.  I can't help but feel very very sorry for her. Oh, did I mention she have a 8 year old kid? No? Ok. So, now I'm telling you.

I pray for her.. I can't imagine if I was in her place. I really feel I have a great great GREAT tendency to get depressed easily.

So, you're still not happy in your life cause you have no boyfriend or the latest gadget?

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Appreciate what we have before its gone... :)

There is always more stories besides the one I mentioned.

Working in a hospital can be a bore, but there is always a story behind everything. Turn it around your way. :)

XOXO

Smiling Like There's No Tomorrow

So result's are out and I am a happy girl !

Alhamdullilah, what i've been waiting for since my 3rd semester had been achieved this semester. :)
I am even happier that it made my dad happy. He's not the kind that is easy to please. *grin*

What's next ?
Final clinical practice and my final research report !
Pray that I'll pass with flying colours just like last semester.
I really really hope I wont lost enthusiasm and focus too easily though.

XOXO

Result Day

Assalamualaikum and good evening !

So, tomorrow is UiTM's result day for the Semester 2 2011/2012. Seems like most people are tweeting or posting up status about it, directly or indirectly. No matter what my result is, I have to brave myself to accept it.
Hold on to the Creator's word that he won't test us more than what we can deal with.

Well, not gonna ramble much about that. I was on a very very LONG hiatus from blogging, no? I wasn't that busy but I just lost cause and words to blog. I guess I was on twitter too much that blogging became a 2nd option to write about opinions, complaints and life events.

The second last semester of my 4 years of study are hectic and eventful! *LOVE* I joined in my campus's innovation day. We didn't get any recognition but we did have fun looking at everyone's creative and genius innovation. Okay, maybe not all was fascinating as there was stuffs that I don't understand and I didn't even look at ALL of them. Just those near to our booths. Our team do have to congratulate the ALL boys teams from our class that got their self a Gold prize! *proud-for-you-guys!*

After innovation, comes the Inter-campus Aerobic Competition & Inter-faculty Aerobic Competition. Oh my, a whole month of practice almost every evening and night was fun fun fun! Tiring? Yes but FUN ! We didn't won the inter-campus competition. Well, we're the underdog amongst all of the team. but we got SECOND PLACE for the inter-faculty level. Speechless moment for the whole team. Our supporters are so sweet to say that we deserves to get first place but alas, we're happy even with even second place. Special shoutout to ALL who came ! The boyfie, the girlfie ween and kak zeha, the classmates and also the juniors ! Thank you all !

All these while I was also busy with my data collection for my final year research paper. I am still in the middle of getting the research paper done. Although the motivation is so not there ! I've been procrastinating since earlier this month! Help?

InsyaAllah, once the research paper are done, I'll be going for my final clinical practice at Hospital Selayang for 3 months. With Allah's willing, I might be graduating this year ! Pray for me will ya?


As usual, I ramble too much about myself. Oh well...

XOXO

Birthday Wishes!

I always have a lots of birthday wishes, thus... I blog about it. 

Although I wish for all these, I never really did care if I got it or not. LOL. 

I am not a millionaire's daughter for one...

So here goes! 

Kiss & Tell Platform Pumps

Any makeup brushes set *LOL*

Urban Decay Naked Pallete

Clarisonic Mia

Furla Candy Boston Bag

Marc by Marc Jacobs Classic Q Francesca

Colour Block Blazers

Soo.. there you go. Haha! 

Not even a gadget in sight huh?

Not a big fan actually. LOL. 

I appreciates any fashion item though. 

of course, makeups too! 

Okay. Enough dreaming for tonight. 

XOXO