home.

i'm home!~

sigh. i arrived home around 7 on sat evening. kejap gile dpt duk rumah. esok pagi ade swimming class. then out cari barang2 keperluan & before night time da kene balik puncak kejayaan. (heh?)
why am i complaining again?

mungkin jiwa yang sgt x tenang nie puncanya. sigh. since masuk kampus baru. terlalu banyak benda berubah. n for the first time ever, i rase sgt susah nak adapt with all these new things & situations.

a person once said, i'm lucky to have *him* by my side once we move to puncak alam. i am lucky to have him. but certain things had also changed between us. it's not alamanda. it's not shah alam. it's not subang either. nothing would stay the same forever. to adapt to this atmosphere is very time consuming. sigh.

sometimes i wonder, have i ever learnt how to adapt? no? i guess. instead, i acted like i'm adapting. like i could do this. i could survive here no prob alrite. that's actually easier to do then actually adapting myself. but once i'm alone, when the need to pretend is not there, i just couldnt restrain myself from thinking negatively of everything. academically & socially.

overseas. sigh. tqah is going away soon enuf. everytime i thot about it, i feel, empty. like i'm losing a friend. she will be back maybe one day. but still, emptiness feels my heart. oh yeah, tqah if u read this, haha. kelakar en?

fortunately, it's not all bad news this time. i'm having a good feeling academically. not theoritically tho. but i have to admit, my confidence level grew. (sket je pun, and not at all times) but still, it's an achievement kan? haha. ngek ain da gile.

oh. and i have this funny feelong inside of me. a feeling that is quite ridiculous for the moment. seriously, i think i'm losing my mind due to too many fresh air up there. *LOL* seriously mengarut.

oh, do ignore my rambling nowadays. i have no intention in blogging structurely.
kalau exam mmg da lama fail. :D

XOXO