2009.

every year is one hell of year.
but this year,
it goes from bitter to sweet.
from bad to good.
from negative to positive. :)

The start of 2009, a smile was plastered to my face, though it tends to come and go with situation.

Academically, earlier this year i was led astray with unnecessary problems. Social life & events become a priority rather than my studies, which shows in my results in the middle of the year. Fortunately, i did not fail any papers. I thought, i would give up & couldn't care less bout my studies anymore. quite the opposite happen actually. I still play around, but not as much as before. *ithink* :) oh. yeah, my results did turns out better. :)

Love life. Hum. Can't actually explain. what i can say is it turns out better than expected. negative influences? paranoia? doubts? jealousy? something that everyone have to deal with. in or out of love. :) *edited* Thanks to Love also, & PHYTAS of course, this year had witnessed this spoilt bratz had AT LAST went camping and even survived it! besides participated in activities she had never imagined doing. spoilt much?

Friends. Great! Meeting & keeping in touch more than u can imagine. Haha. Has also been meeting with some of them unexpectedly. I am sorry though, if turn out from one to many outings planned together. Despite all the complaints of being stranded in Puncak Alam, i guess i had also grown accustomed with being indoor and doing nothing. ;) Berlatih jadi isteri solehah. POYO! ignore that statement, it is something out of ordinary. ;p

Family. End of year, December, was mostly spend with moi family. My Che'Tie family came all the way from Kelantan. So, was spending the times with them. :) Jalan TAR, Jalan Masjid India, Bagus Baking Solution in Ampang. Her mee bandung is the best! 2 days i only ate that. Lols. Then, when she goes back, my C'sha came. So, 2 weeks with endless laughter & havoc.

Money? Haha. This is the only one that actually goes from bad to worst. ;) due to no planning & movie outing once or twice every week, not to forget the irresistible urge to get a new phone. i was broke earlier than planned. :( JPA! masukla cepat! :P anyway, next year, i promised myself not to get too carried away with my scholarship money. :)

New year resolutions? something i could never list any year. i'll try though, but i am not putting high hopes on keeping to my resolutions. Usually, my resolutions comes & go with situations. :)
One obvious one is to plan my spending. *seriously,goodluckinthat* ;)

okaaayyyy. tade idea da. Nytes!

p/s: i've also grown accustomed to watching footballs. -___-' surprising? not!

XOXO

A little smile won't hurt anyone.

Saturday & Sunday.
Stadium Shah Alam.
Medical cover.
Netball.
Carnival Selangor Ria.
Tag along with Sayang.

It was a last minute decision, when Sayang told me he had been offer the job. I ask to tag along. 1st day, mandi hujan. haha. 2nd day, lepak kejap da abes, so jalan-jalan kat pasar cari makan. :)

Monday
Pavillion.
Shopping.
Benefits.
Family.

Oh. This was fun. Got myself one set of Benefit's products. :) Thanks Abah!

Tuesday
Sunway Pyramid.
Ice Skating.
KFC.
Alvin & The Chipmunks 2.
Sayang, the babysitter.
C'sha & Abg Boii, the couple.
My sisters.

Oh. This is even more fun. Ice skating with Sayang & classmates before is fun but it is even more entertaining watching Sayang be the babysitter. =D C'sha still can't get the hang of ice skating, keep on tumbling on her boyfie. ;) My sisters as usual, demanding. Leteyh!

XOXO

Clueless

i am bored & exhausted.
almost the whole day spend with Sayang. :)
now,
i'm out of idea what to do to fill my times.
so,
i'd been poking around certain people's FB profiles.
alas!
read something i dont think i ever want to know.
Doubts is again wrapping me up in a way that left me suffocating for air of truth.
*sigh*

i mean,
if it's not me, then why bother all this while?

XOXO

YEOH.

Year End Open House.

Thanks to all who came. loveuallloads.

*runaway hamsters*
screaming laughing rolling jumping
all in one scene.
;)

*short course : aerobics & massages*
how to loose weight on specific parts pf body?
hurm. wonder much?

*test drive*
Satria Neo CPS
drove by Proton's professional testing driver.
;)

*overall*
smiling all along.
Thanks for all who came.

XOXO

Cardigans, Sweaters & Outerwears. ;)

i have no idea why. everytime i enters a boutique i am always looking for a new cardigan or sweaters. no, not that i have none or not that i'm obsessed with it. i just finds it easier to shop for, then i'll complain of having nothing to wear. ridiculous? i know.

currently, i have
1 Zara's long cardigan.
1 Zara's knitted sweaters.
1 Voir's long cardigan
1 Dorothy Perkin's long cardigan.
1 Elle's sweater.
1 Padini's sweater.
1 unlabeled blue sweater.

that total ups to 7 outerwears!

still not enough for, unfortunately. :))

in my list?
leather jacket!
sporty-like sweater! *have my eyes on Adidas or Puma*

besides that,
i also am aiming for vincci's studded ballet & black wedges.
am looking for an studded oversized clutch.
oh. n Miley's kind of tank top. ;)

i also NEED a new purse!

OMG.
i think i need to marry a billionnaire.

XOXO

Halimatul Saadiah

Happy Birthday
!!~

OH MY COACH!
u r officially 20 years old!

i'll still love u no matter how old u are. ;)

*mwahxes!*

XOXO

Long Awaited Open House.

Friends & Family~
Yeehaa Crews.
Fellow Physiotherapist.

This Thursday make a blank spot on ur diary for my open house!
Most probably it'll be at dinner time.
Make yourself available okay!!

Menu:

Main Course:
Nasi Kerabu
Roast Chicken

Appetizers & Deserts:
not planned yet. but i think of course there will be my cheesecake & my mum's caramel pudding.

See u all on Thursdays okay? ;)

XOXO

Sesat.

i got lost on my way to Sayang's. don't ask me how. i realised i am lost when i saw Avon's blue building. Sayang is going ballistic already. i am an hour late so what do u expect? but anyway, things turn out okay. no scratch that! things turn out great! lols.

err. details is for me to keep. since stalkers are everywhere. :) oh, i wonder, which of my friend lives in KT? *wonderwonder*

YC, kenapa senyap jew?

XOXO

Phenomenal.

Rezuin is gay. *and yes, u did turn me into a gay*
Halimatul is it-chiee~
Me?
Heading to seriousity. *yes, no such word*

*Inside Joke*
"i'm a footballer's gf"

XOXO

Annoyingly Attached

as usual, i woke up around 10. but didnt get out of bed till noon. and today amazingly, mandi awal sikit. thanks to annoyed boyfie cause i am becoming a lazy ass. *not like i am the kind of "rajin melampau"* then, spent sometime attending to my cafe world & facebook comments. Level of boredom are coming to an annoyingly rapid increase. Thus, the decision to turnover my room that looks like a dump. this, i have to gave a HUGE BIG THANK YOU to my sisters. the plush toys alone covers almost all of the damn floor. so, yeah. it's better not to imagine. luckily, when i ask my mum for some fresh clean bedsheets, she decided she wanted to help. which make my work much more easier & efficient. :D *thanks mama!* we decided to move around some of the furnitures. and throw away LOTS of JUNKS that apparently, my sis decided to kept all this while. *sentimental konon* done with throwing. we started rummaging all the "accesories wardrobe" belonging to me. and what do u expect, all my gazillions earrings collection is gone! whats left is some that even i, wears very few times only. again, thanks to my sis for using it and NOT putting it back to where it belongs. positively, i finds some other accesories tuck away all other things idk what. *sigh* guess, i don't actually need to shop for LOADS of accesories as i thot i shud have cause i'm out of accesories. u see, i had actually plan to change the bedsheet, re-organize certain small things and sweep the floor. :P after i swept the floor, my mum came in with the mops. oh. she even help to clean the fans! * ily mum!* oh. did i mention that my mum also forced my sis to help out, no? yes, she did. i think tomorrow, if i still got some "rajin-ness" left in me, i'll sort out my wardrobes. throw away what is un-wearable or out of size.

night time. i was annoyingly sleepy at early hours. fell asleep peacefully alone in my room at 12. until, my sisters shows up around 2. kononnya nak tidur. instead, they annoyed me by continuing goofing around and wake me up. *screamingoutloudalreadyatthispoint* ask them to shut up, but alas! i could not go back to sleep. *barulah berangan nak tidur awal & bangun awal esok utk me-normalkan time zone hidup sendiri* i stomp out of my room, and went online. oh. good. seems like tonight everyone decided to sleep early. now i'm left all alone. i'll be lucky if the boyfie wakes up for football in around 10 minutes more. atleast someone to entertain me. if not, i guess i'll go cook something up, make some hot drinks to and try to sleep. yet, again.

sisters are annoyingly attached to us. though i love them. they can be a bit,eh tak, tipu. they can be INCREDIBLINGLY annoying. since i am still working on trying to chillax around annoying people, they are NOT helping me. oh. shut up sis & go to bed! :D

XOXO

i have no idea what to blog but i want to blog. cause, sian stalker i nnt tade ape nak bace. *ahh, mcm ade stalker* whatever. anyway, this holiday had been very unproductive. except that i had manage to meet up with lots of lost friends. intentionally or unintetionally. *wujud ke that word?*
whatever. somehow, this holiday i found myself back. some news make me re-think about myself. i hate hypocrites. so, why be one? haha. oh. i don't intend in changing anything. something to do with my soul. *omg. i am so crapping* oh. madonna's vc are showing on tv and i'm thinking why is she dancing like that? mmg in-trend ke? haha.

i am broke right now. yeah. everyone is happily shopping for YES. i'm crapping around w/o cash. i hate it. haha. luckily, i haven't found anything that i really really want. oh. i am starting a birthday wish list. haha. wish list. i wish i could have it. but even if i don't, hey, wish doesn't always come true rite? oh. i rarely drive. but once i drive, alone. i don't want to stop. especially when i don't know what to think. *serabut* that is why, i reaalllyy wants a car to drag to college. nevermind the fact i can't drive it to class. i just wants it to be there so i can drive whenever i want. to run away when i wanted to. haha. it is so frustating having to rely on people at college. see, this is why i hate colleges. there is no privacy. haha. maybe i'll find a private spot for a run-away time. just like i use to in alamanda.

oh. in-security. yeah. i can be insecure. some people do know how to take advantage on that. thank god they've stop. i don't need u to try mess things up. i can do it perfectly on my own. haha. not that i wanted to, but sometimes i feel myself annoying. haha. what a confession! i mean, when i worry bout things i don't want to worry about. i'll get annoyed at myself. my ego had also annoys me loads of time. so, yeah. i do feel annoy with myself.

oh. i da tatau nak crap ape. haha. mwahxes!

XOXO

Siti Nur Atiqah

Happy Birthday Dear!

This song seriously reminds me of you~
miss you much~
mwahxes~

XOXO

remember hot & cold?

it's me.
i'm hot & i'm cold.
ur yes & my no.
i'm in & i'm out.
i'm up & i'm down.
i'm wrong & ur right.
it's black & ur white.
we fight, u play games.
we kiss, but don't make up.

ignore me coz i'm just rambling to fill in times.

today, the 13th.
21 days left.

let's list the new year's resolution.
though i know,
most of the years,
i don't even remember.

but,
it never hurts to try rite?

this time,
it includes finding myself.
cause i've lost it
in a love maze
created by ME!
yeay ME!
a part of it
lost
trying to fit in
my own academic program
*boring!*

now, lets have fun.
before the work starts.

XOXO

This time of the year last year,

i was busy with SUA.

my love life is a mess.

my result is not satisfying enough.

This year,

i am not busy with anything.

my love life is okay.

my result almost satisfy me though not my parents.

Tomorow,
i have to attend a kenduri.
all the family going to be there.
my result would be question of the year.
i am soo gonna despise tomorow.

oh.
what r u doing?

XOXO

Sem 03.

okay. okay only.

though,

i have a feeling.
she will not be happy for my result.
as always..

*sigh*

Tari Tirana

i wanted more than i can achieved.
that has always been me since forever.
i wanted to be on the top of the list.
i taught that i have everything.

but as lifes goes on,
i realised i never did have everything.
instead,
i have nothing.

right now, after 19 years of life.
i felt empty as empty as can be.

i could not rationalize my actions.
i couldn't think straight.
my emotions are guiding me.
my hormonal imbalance are misleading me.
my insecurity is driving me nuts.

well,
atleast it's an achievement when i realised i am getting crazy.

the title has nothing to do with the blogging.
lols.

XOXO

YC Gath.

chaos weyhh!

Have YC ever manage to be perfectly quiet & "lady-likey" ever?
ergh.
don't do that.
i wud go ballistic!

oh.
stop complaining that YCs are always planning a 5star gath. :))
cause we proved that we fit anywhere as long as we're together. :))
*humming HSM we're all in this together*
although, we can never say no to starbux~ :D

i love u YC!

XOXO

Jom Sihat, Cergas & Aktif!~

Haha.

Who knows that elderly could make our day soo tiring.

haha.

seriously, they were cute.

my sentences were like this all morning,

"makcik, pagi tadi da makan ubat? sarapan pagi da makan?"

"pukul berapa makan pagi td?"

"skang ni, makcik rehat dulu, sbb darah makcik tggi skang nieh, taley buat lagi test nieh"

sekali ade uncle/atok nie sound ain.

"u people don't know anything about blood pressure i tell u"

adoyy. suke2 je uncle nieh.
ta psl2 kne sound. tros pas kes tue kat naim seblom ain ilang sabar. haha.
dala Queue pjg, uncle nie byk songeh plak.
hehe.

last2, mse ceramah diabetes, ktorg sume da tetdo di sebalik meja2 dan mne sje tmpt tsorok. :))

bgn2 join tai chi & wai dangong.
seyesly, taley trime exs nie. slow gle. haha.

XOXO

boredoms. :)

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
She doesnt get your humour like I do

I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But I wears short skirts, She wear t-shirts
I'm cheer captain and She's on the bleachers
I'm Cheering for the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't She see?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself
Hey isnt this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?

I wears high heels, She wear sneakers
I'm cheer captain and She's on the bleachers
I'm Cheering for the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't She see?
You belong with me

Standin by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could She not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me

Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?
Been here all along so why can't She see?
You belong with me

Standing by or waiting at your back door
All this time how could She not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me

Have They ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me

XOXO